S_V_H It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye image 3

itSoHard_4You are now seeing the flow of the music for It’s so hard to say Goodbye.  For the music I have used painted wood, both round and square shapes, about a quarter-inch thick.  I am at a turning point with this artwork. As I have done with other artworks I have created a three-dimensional look by stacking canvases. My thinking is to take this further by moving entirely away from displaying the music as a two-dimensional shape. This approach then sharply separates the Music from the background, and better satisfies a constant pursuit of mine.

The big advantage to lifting the Music off of the surface of the canvas is that I can better present it with more depth,  variation, and of course, improved contrast from the background.  By widening the materials,  used to produce these add-on representatives of the Music,  I am breaking through the limitations of the wood frame covered canvas. This gives this art unlimited potential to find more options to portray the spontaneity, uniqueness,  and the unpredictable, of a musical performance, and  still stay true to the style of this musical art.  I understand that music does not have limitations, and therefore, if done smartly, neither should I when I am portraying it.

By abandoning more and more of the restrictions that you see in sheet music, I am coming closer to a better understanding of how I can best display music.  Each of these artworks represent, a unique piece of music, but instead of playing the music in a performance, by evolving this art form,  I am getting better at creating my own cover of that music, which is a major goal.

I would like to complete this artwork by the end of this week, to close the door on 2015. I cannot lock the door. There will still be many moments when I have to turn the handle and walk back in, when memories of voices that are now going find their way to me.  I will listen.  I want to learn from them. Though they are no longer with me, I feel them, and I want to let them know that I am still here, and have not forgotten.

Scott Von Holzen

S_V_H It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday image 1 & 2



itSoHard_1It’s So Hard to Say Goodbye is a painting consisting of three canvases, with a length of fifty-two inches.  I have three images to show how I advanced the background for this music.

When you get to the third image is of the ,done for now. Next up I will be placing in the music flow, once I have cutout the music.


itSoHard_3Below is my attempt to learn how to simile, without looking silly, like I lost it, or fiendish, the last thing that I am. I would say I achieved none of those goals. Actually, I will be including more pictures of me with the artwork, to better the connection between me and all you readers, viewers, visitors, or whoever, or whatever you are. My thinking is that I would like to counter the fact that I do not see a lot of Blog sites that have images of the Blogger. I have already added a Contact option to this Blog, to again add another point of connection. It is a learning, and understanding process I am trying to development to better connect with the public,  and not by becoming a door-to-door peddler of this art.itSoHard_3b

Let me get back to the story of this artwork, and why I picked this music for my last artwork for 2015. Early May I attended the funeral of my favorite Uncle, Walter Von Holzen. He was the first family member that had graduated from college. He was the one that said to me, why would you go to the tech when you can go to the University of Wisconsin.  I took his advice,  and it and he changed me.

Then within a couple of weeks later we had to put Roxy, our favorite cat down.  She was dying from an eye disease,  and starvation because of it. Having to make that decision made for some emotional moments.

Then in mid September I received a distraught call, at work, from my step brother, telling me that my Father had passed away. I thought I would handle this better than I did with Mom’s passing, but I have not. It is a Life reality check when you lose both of your parents, the only people you have known all of your days.

Finally, our favorite, Aunt Selma, who was still mentally sharp at 95 years old until she contracted pancreatic cancer quickly past away in October.

All of this,  and the need to consider other life changing decisions has had an impact on me.  And yet, I have found ways to move myself, and this art ahead, probably with the help of my Mother.  She told me many times, “Never cut yourself short.”  She must have always knew how lucky I was, but she obviously also thought that I needed constant reminding.

Life really comes down to what you do with the opportunities that present themselves in good times and bad. It then come down to this: It up to us yet type of people, to carry on knowing that the best is yet to come, that Time has granted us all a pardon, and oh by the way, just as a reminder,  don’t forget to never cut yourself short.

This painting will look back. This painting will also carry me,  into a better 2016 with these words from the music, ” And I’ll take with me the memories to be my sunshine after the rain.”


Scott Von Holzen